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punishment

 

 

track listing:

 

social vortex - play - play

take - play - play

girlfriend II - play - play

older - play - play

 

normal - play - play

be with me - play - play

i'm dead - play

punishment - play - play

 

all songs are 3 min excerpts only

 


8 songs written from 1997 - 1999, unfinished due to lack of vocal recording / production facilities

in 2005, thanks to software processing, these songs were completed at last

no third party loops or samples
 

 

social vortex - play - play

no composure, no confidence
can't ever relax, never natural

negative is cool, hostility's so glamorous
and I always watch you, please admire me

your personality always overwhelms me
i have to give way to your will, i have to condemn them
hypocrisy is my life, how could i live without it
i have to give way to their will, i have to condemn you

social vortex, pulls you in
spins you round, disorientates you

got to find a hold, fight your way to the top
your foot in someone else's face
crush them beneath you

your personality always overwhelms me
i have to give way to your will, i have to condemn them
hypocrisy is my life, how could i live without it
i have to give way to their will, i have to condemn you 
 

punishment - play - play

if your job's more like a sentence than a career
you weary men, don't have sons
if your father twisted you, broke you down
break the cyle, break it now

i'll humiliate you today
grind your bones to make my career
delegate you half to death
and criticise you to the ground

every day you have to face him
and he's the most serious threat to your sanity
and his management is the greatest punishment
that could be devised for you

i'll humiliate you today
grind your bones to make my career
delegate you half to death
and criticise you to the ground
when you get home you'll read your paper
switch on the tv, ignore your family
shout at any noise they make
and pass your insecurity on
 

older - play - play

you're older now and you're going to die
and it's closer than you are comfortable with
just yesterday, you were young and beautiful
now you're older than you thought was possible

and if you'd rather die than be different
then that is the choice that you have made
if you'd rather talk about your decorating
than the state of the world, so be it

it's painful to think of - it's unbearable
it's bigger than you are, and it frightens you
it's not comfortable, not recreational
not any of the things you convinced yourself
that life was about

and if you'd rather die than be different
then that is the choice that you have made
if you'd rather talk about your decorating
than the state of the world, so be it
 

be with me - play - play

be with me, be my friend
look up to me and love me
play with me, enjoy my company
admire me and need me

i'll try to stop you...
i'll try to stop you ending up like me
who'd want to be like me - not me
and i don't want you to be

be with me, be my friend
forgive me, and love me
stay with me, and live indefinitely
admire me and need me

i'll try to stop you...
i'll try to stop you ending up like me
who'd want to be like me - not me
and i don't want you to be

normal - play - play

children kill for pleasure and it's normal
parents kill their children  and it's normal
people hate their lives and that's normal

i'm glad i've never been normal 

normal is not what's acceptable
normal is not what's justified
normal is never what's moral
normal is just what happens to you

violent entertainment is normal
copycat murders are normal
baseball bats and knives are normal 

i'm glad i've never been normal 

normal is not what's acceptable
normal is not what's justified
normal is never what's moral
normal is just what happens to you 
 

girlfriend II - play - play

yes i have a girlfriend now and she married me
and i'm almost normal now and you can mention me
yes i'm nearly normal now, not so embarrasing
but i'm still causing you problems - i just can't live like you

what did you expect
that i'd grow out of my unhappy phase
that i'd stop being abnormal when i stopped being lonely
did you think i was pretending just to get some attention
it was never adolescence, just the general effect of life

now i have a job and a house and some children too
we can talk about our holidays and our furniture
yes we'll talk about anything that's insignificant
and pretend that the future will never come 

what did you expect
that i'd grow out of my unhappy phase
that i'd stop being abnormal when i stopped being lonely
did you think i was pretending just to get some attention
it was never adolescence, just the general effect of life 
 

i'm dead - play

i'm dead - i died last night
with a little pitter patter
and now I'm gone
i hope you all will miss me
i hope you miss me just a little

miss me in the morning
miss me in the evening

it's the feeling of air brushing against your skin
the touch of the sun
it's the caress of the breath of tree against the skylight
the last gasp in the sound of daybreak

i'm dead - I want you all to notice
i'm not turning up for practice
i'm dead - being alive was better
even when it was painful and I hated it

i'm dead - passed away in the dark
i was a bit unhappy, just a little
i'm red - ready for the last stand
pushed a hole through the evening
i'm dead - that's just the way it is
but I've got a little story

i'll tell you now I'm showing

it's the feeling of air brushing against your skin
the touch of the sun
it's the caress of the breath of tree against the skylight
the last gasp in the sound of daybreak

words and music
my darling nihilist - thanks for permission
 

take - play - play

how effective are the lies that i told you
do you rely on my exclusive love for you
do you trust me not to leave you
are you convinced that i prefer you 

i've got to take who i can get when I can get them

but i wouldn't die for you, i wouldn't die from losing you
i'm not ashamed to use and then get rid of you
when the one i really love becomes available
and gives me a call

i lied when i said that you were perfect for me
you're not the one that I always dreamed of
the best that i can say is that you're bearable
and that you made yourself available

but i wouldn't die for you, i wouldn't die from losing you
i'm not ashamed to use and then get rid of you
when the one i really love becomes available
and gives me a call